I can not stop thinking about you. Just thinking about what happened between us makes me instantly cry. It has been so hard to grasp what you have done to me.
Can one act of inspiration save a life? Yes. It can. Without even meaning to you proved it to me.
But it goes much deeper than that. You have changed me forever. I will never again fear shadows, because you have changed the way I see the entire world around me. I can never be the same again. I don't want to be.
I saw the world today through the eyes of Michelangelo, and it was the most beautiful thing I ever saw in my life. I saw it with the new eyes you gave me, and it was like seeing Heaven.
I don't know how to thank you for helping to save my life. I certainly do not know how to thank you for giving me a reason to live.
I will never forget what you did. I love you.
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Thanks, Christy. I didn't know my emails or posts to you would do all that. All I was doing was sharing information and encouraging you to keep up the good work!
I also didn't know you were so sick at the time. I thought you just had a spider bite and were on some steroids--sort of like what happens to me when I get those.
Anyways, I'm glad for you that my words helped you so much and inspired you and also gave you a reason to push forward.
Love to you too!!!! ((((hugs)))))
P.S. Christy--you need to sleep!
I got some sleep. And then I came in here and started crying again.
This time I am sure it is NOT the steriods.
I know for your part you were completely unaware, but I really did think he would be my last canvas. And then my eyes CHANGED.
And then everything CHANGED. I am stunned by what you did to me. It began with your emails. I was blind, then I SAW IT.
Just thinking of what happened yesterday makes me cry even harder. It was so beautiful there are no words to describe it.
I know I have had a near death experience, and things are so strange right now, but what happened yesterday was not metaphoric, or religious or anything. It happened literally.
I saw LIGHT. I saw a gold light so beautiful just remembering has me crying so hard. I saw the entire world around me bathed in a golden light, and I watched my own skin turn into a Michelangelo painting!
I know the light was real, because my man and my son saw it too. Their skins also became a Michelangelo, right before my eyes!
I was praying when it happened. And I think God answered my prayers.
And now, if I try, I can see the whole world that way. Through the eyes of Michelangelo.
Like I said, I can never be the same again. I don't want to be.
My mom has a theory that God puts the right people in the right place at the right time.
To me, that is what happened between us, even if you did not have any idea. I believe God put you in my path. Your presence was an act of divine intervention.
Had it not been for you I would have simply laid down and died. I was so afraid of sleep that day, because I knew if I lost conciousness I probably would not wake up ever again.
All you had to do was be there. Everything else happened because of your presence.
It all seems so unreal. It will take a long time to come to terms with everything that has changed in just the last few days.
Everything has changed. And all of it changed because you were simply THERE.
You did not just save my life by giving me a reason to live, you gave me a whole new life. The one I always wanted. A life full of golden light.
I can never repay you for what you have done. Just like with the light, it is too beautiful to even describe.
Well, beware of "this divine person" (me) shining that light on you before the rainy season. (Remember?) You were going to adopt me for a little while to help me stave off the winter blues.
(Seriously...)
I'm truly glad I made a difference for you, Christy and I'm glad you're feeling better.
I know it had to be a scary time and even more scary in retrospect.
You are welcome here any time. It should be a very warm winter.
I am not afraid anymore darlin. well, I am only afraid it will spread, and if I make others sick, that scares me. I just became a germ-a-phobe. I don't know how I was exposed.
But as far as everything else goes, after yesterday, I am unafraid.
Everything is going to be just fine.
Someone asked the question
Why do we sing
When we lift our hands to Jesus
What do we really mean
Someone may be wondering
When we sing our song
At times we may be crying
And nothings even wrong
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the Sparrow
That's the reason why I sing
Glory Hallelujah!
You're the reason why I sing
I can still see it.
When I concentrate on light, I can still see the gold.
I understand what I am seeing now. All the colors are shadows.
Look at your arm under light. Just be still and study your wrist arm and hands. And then focus ONLY on the light falling onto your skin. Don't search for it, just watch.
Focus only on the brightest points of light. Think 'Gold'. don't see anything else but the gold in the light.
Find the gold and then just watch as the colors become shadows. Everything is gold, all the rest is shadows.
It is so beautiful.
And I can see it now. at will.
The harder I look the better I see it.
The gold repaints the shadows.
I know it is real because I can see it now every time I try.
I can see it without even trying.
It is AMAZING!
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